For me, March is a month of anniversaries.
March 5, 2012 was the day I was finally correctly diagnosed: bipolar disorder. Suddenly, my life made sense.
March 9, 2021 was the day ketamine banished a bone-crushing depression.
March 13, 2020 was the day New Mexico shut down. I’ve had insomnia ever since.
March 20, 2018 was the day I realized the reason I formulated a detailed plan to commit suicide was depression. It was also the day I decided to live and immediately went back on an antidepressant.
This past week was spring break. This past week was frustrating. This past week was, and still is, painful. I’m having a neuropathy flare up bad enough to keep me home rather than going in to school and working on the four self-portraits assigned in my painting class. I am significantly behind working on those paintings and fear I won’t have them done by the day they are due. The grade doesn’t matter because I’m not working towards another degree. What matters is having the work done on time, and it won’t be. I am embarrassed by this.
We are working on still lives in the photography class. This is part of what I handed in.
Home made abortion tools; it’s a political statement.
Auditioning fabric.
Dead Life.
I rarely use live view, but I used it for this photo. I was setting up another shot, looked down, and saw what the camera “saw.” It was more interesting than the shot I had planned.
Peace. It’s my palate for my painting class. When I’m in the Art Zone, neuropathy pain disappears, the world disappears, I forget to use the bathroom. I love being in the Art Zone.
Cheshire moon. I love taking shots of a less than full moon. I wasn’t steady enough to set up the tripod and use the 150-600mm lens. The marijuana I use to combat neuropathy pain leaves me stoned and walking into walls. I used the 18-400mm lens that was on the camera.
I worked on turning some photos into fabric designs. Eventually, I’ll have them in my Spoonflower shop.
I’m linking with Nina Marie here: http://ninamariesayre.blogspot.com
My Spoonflower shop is here: https://www.spoonflower.com/profiles/deb_thuman
My store, Deb Thuman Art, is here: http://www.DebThumanArt.com
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