While I can roll the wheelchair around the house, I can’t get outside unless it’s for a medical reason. We have a flagstone walkway in the front of the house and it’s exactly the right size to make wheelchair wheels land in gravel. I can’t get to the back patio because the back door is too narrow to get a wheelchair through. Getting outside through the garage is not a one-person operation. First, I have to do what I can to hold the door open while Jim backs me through the door. I have to go through backwards because there’s a tiny 1″ bump under the door. That 1″ might as well be the Great Wall of China. Then, there’s a 3″ step that Jim has to back me down. He made a ramp to make getting up and down that step easier. Then Jim has to get me over a small bump under the overhead garage door. I can’t navigate any of these bumps by myself.
The claret cup cactus are blooming, and I could only glance at the blooms on my way in and out of the car before and after we got covid boosters.

With this much hardware in my foot, I’m not about to go walking around until my doctor says I can. No photography. No sewing. No cleaning out the junk room. No baking. If we do go somewhere, I have to make sure I don’t drink anything so I don’t have to use a bathroom. I’ve discovered the hard way that the handicap stall in public restrooms doesn’t accommodate wheelchairs.
Bathing is a two-person process. Jim wraps my foot and leg in a garbage bag and cling wrap to keep water out. That’s what the doctor recommended after he explained those “water tight” boots aren’t water tight – they are water resistant. I use a tub chair and hang my fiberglass encased foot over the edge of the bathtub. It is not fun. It’s cold. Because we’re using the hose with the shower head attached, there’s time when I’m wet, but no hot water is rolling over me. I’m cold most of the time because I’m less active. Wet and cold sucks. Jim has to help me bathe and help me dry off. Then, he gets to help me get dressed. After 5 weeks, he’s become expert at getting my socks off and on and getting my pants off and on. I can put on and take off my tee shirt by myself.
In theory, the cast comes off April 1. I’m hoping I can get my foot wet. If I can, the shower curtain gets put up and I can take a shower by myself.
Spring in southern New Mexico lasts only a tiny time. By the time I can go outside by myself, the spring cactus flowers will be gone.
I haven’t been able to drive since mid-December. The last time I had to give up driving for a few months, the peripheral neuropathy progressed to the point where it’s hard for me to feel the gas and brake pedals. I’m terrified that I won’t be able to feel them at all when I can finally be independent again.
And so I sit here feeling sorry for myself and being afraid of the future. Bleah.
There’s a quilt in here somewhere, but so far, I can’t see it.
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